We’re on a roller-coaster ride but he’s not sitting beside me in the cabin, he’s operating the ride.

I welcome a good old heartbreak once in awhile, but being a broken-hearted puppet on strings is just not my style.

I used to be an idealist with a perfect life that I worked towards and would never compromise. I loved with my head and not my heart. That was all good until now.

I sometimes ponder, everyone needs to experience a really bad relationship once in their life before they find ‘the one’. Its like a step that is essential before u learn how to identify your ideal relationship. This thought makes me feel better.

Its a pity they didn’t have a warning before the ride that read “not for the faint-hearted”.

I say, its alright. As long as you come out of the ordeal safe and sound and back on track. At least now, you have another story to tell.

Feeling solemn and un-vulgar today. and shall not eff anything.

Recently i wake up feeling dumber each day, seems like i’ve been doing things that i don’t normally do, things that reap no benefits to me and even more so does not make any sense.

I’m becoming so dumb it wouldn’t surprise me if i walked into a glass door, bled and attempted to walk through it again in a span of 3 seconds.

Alot like being high after a few drinks – Being stupid is a bliss…

The Hangover alike – Entering the realisation that you are in fact STUPID is painful..

Eff.

How long have i not blogged? well long enough to forget my username and password.

I had to attempt 8 times before getting it right. My consolation : 8 is a lucky number (I should be playing mahjong today.)

Please find below a summary of my life in the past 3 mths:

MAHJONG

WORK

SLEEP-WORK

MAHJONG WITHOUT SLEEP

MAHJONG AFTER WORK

SLEEP-MAHJONGING

Life is really less EFFED with mahjong.

We’re not breaking ground here you’ve probably heard this adage from smug marrieds enough times to make your blood boil. But guess what! it’s true. Being single gives you time to explore what makes you happy, which ultimately makes you a stronger, more well-rounded person and a person new people want to be around ,says Sasha Cagan, author of cult phenomenon quirkyalone: a manifesto for uncompromising romantics. Here’s how to make it happen.

Step 1: Quiet the little voices.

Let’s face it, society constantly reminds people that you need to be paired up to be happy to be a real grown-up. Just walk by any newsstand: No less than three out of five cover lines of women’s and men’s magazines promote sex or relationships, notes Rachna D. Jain, Psy.D., a life and relationship coach. They can often make it seem that everyone’s involved in a really hot love affair except you, she says. So how can you tune out the static? Check your friends are you hanging out with enough like-minded singletons? Being with couples can often make it worse, Jain says. You may find yourself constantly comparing yourself to them. And when Mom (or anyone else) asks for the millionth time why haven’t you settled down, be frank. Say, I really appreciate that you want me to be happy. but your constant focus on how I’m not in a couple is not making me happy. Enough said.

Step 2: Dig up the past.

To be truly happy as a single, you need to redefine yourself as single by choice, at least for now someone who doesn’t just settle for anyone. Along your journey as a single person, you’ve probably had your fair share of groan-worthy relationships. Use that knowledge to your advantage and (re)discover all the ways it�s better to be single and happy than stuck in a rut with a dud. Need a memory refresh? Review your relationship history on paper. For each partner, list how long you two were together, what you liked and disliked about this person, and why it ended. If you only recall the good times (it happens), enlist some truth-seekers (a.k.a. your friends). Ask them to remind you of an unworthy boyfriend or girlfriend from your past. Soon enough, you�ll start to realize that it�s better to be free than, say, dating a freeloader.

 Step 3: Work on a relationship with yourself.

Being single is a great opportunity to grow as a person to appreciate yourself and your idiosyncrasies.  Just like all the other relationships in your life�with your family, your friends�it takes a lot of work to maintain a relationship with yourself, explains Judy Ford, author of Single: The Art of Being Satisfied, Fulfilled and Independent.  The more you know about yourself, the more you know the type of person you want to be with.� But self-realization doesn’t always come easy. You can get started with a few simple writing exercises.  Journals help you delve deeper into your feelings, Jain says. Start writing about a hot-button topic, like the get-married pressure you�re getting from Mom. By taking the time to describe why something angers you, you�ll start to understand yourself and your motivations better. Positive, focused writing can have the same effect: Try listing your life goals and when you want them to happen, regardless of whether you’re single or married. Finally, realize that happiness can come from places outside relationships: Creative projects, travel, your career. Need a kick-start? Jot down at least five things that make you happy every day.

Step 4: Celebrate your single-hood.

With new episodes of Sex and the City long gone, it seems that there’s an empty hole to fill the one that glamorizes the single life. Now all that�s left are shows like The Bachelor, sighs Cagan. So create your own ways to celebrate single-hood and live it up! And remember, everything has a good side; you just have to learn how to spot it or reframe it, as Jain notes. If sleeping alone at night triggers a sense of loneliness, respin the situation in your mind to realize the benefits (you can eat ice cream in bed, sleep diagonally, snooze, snore you name it). Finally, make a list of 100 things that you would like to do by yourself things you could never do if you had a boyfriend or girlfriend and start doing them.  When you’re single, you can redecorate your place at any time, take off on the spur of the moment, even have the whole crossword puzzle to yourself! Jain says.

Anna Harris is a New York-based writer and editor who’s learning to love being single.

… as i was approaching her carpark, she called to tell me that someone in her block had just abandoned his dog by unleashing it at the void deck and asking some kids to take him away…. to cut the long story short, we called SPCA after much consideration…. we waited for an hour for their guys to come….

The dog is a 12 year old cocker spaniel called Bingo. When we saw Bingo, his skin was in a very bad state, and suffering from hip dylapsia meant he couldn’t really stand and sit at ease. He was a charming one with soulful eyes…

Throughout our wait for SPCA to arrive, Bingo’s only objective was to go back home…

he didn’t understand that we were trying to help him…

he did’nt understand that his owner had decided to leave him loitering the streets…

he didnt understand why when he found his way home, all that was there was a shut door ….

I hope he finds a good home soon…

We only managed to have lunch at 4pm… we were starved… and BTW, MY is eating meat again!!! yay!!! HURRAY!!!! nobody likes to eat with people who only eat fish and vegetables…. what a bore… Cupcake, i’m so happy to see u enjoying ur chicken and pork once again!

5pm: Met Cher for coffee at cuppage plaza 

Well she was late for 45 minutes… But i enjoyed being alone for that moment… Cher said that i looked like i was enjoying a lonely saturday, looking very ZEN… We had a good time with our coffee and brownies until the it started to rain and we begin worrying about how to get to Centrepoint without getting all wet an Fugly before our next appointment.

7.58pm: Met Xian and Candice for dinner at Taka.

Driving in town at night during the weekend amidst heavy downpour is seriously no fun! Shenton and orchard tops my list of most hated areas to drive in….

Met my 2 cupcakes for dinner at Ajisen…. Candice had a brief moment with the a very naughty little boy…. she wanted to take a seat whilst waiting for our turn, and this boy pushed her off the chair… she came back to the queue to look for us, looking rather terrorised…

Xian doesnt like naughty kids very much, i swear if that was her kid, his ears would be swollen by now…

10pm: MAHJONG with cupcakes!

I have abstained from mahjong for 2 months now despite my cuppies undying persistance to make me re-find my love for the game. Well, today i decided to indulge Lina, Candice and Xian by agreeing to be their 4th kaki, i specifically mentioned “JUST FOR TONIGHT!”….

Yah yah… my feelings for the game has indeed rekindled…

Today was a good Saturday….

Nothing much to EFF about my Life today.

Nobody told me that wrong things cannot feel right….

Nobody said that mistakes are things that you should not take….

Well, lesson learnt… try never to do anything wrong or make any mistakes..

but if you do make those mistakes : SHIT HAPPENS AND ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS FLUSH…

Under my comforter in a freezing cold room is where i want to hide for the next 2 days… until Monday… when my new job starts…

Someone once told me that ” Theres a turning point in everyones life”

This moment is when i signal my turn… right or left, i really don’t know…

time to FLUSH…

EFFmyLife…. like SERIOUSLY!

Tell you where you need to go
Tell you who you need to be
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you when you�ll need to leave

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you’ve heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

Chorus:

And you’re on fire
When he’s near you
You’re on fire
When he speaks
You’re on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything you are
Give me one more chance to be… (near you)

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I�ll take

Chorus:
When I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries…

I’m standing on the edge of me (x3)
I’m standing on the edge

Chorus:

And I’m on fire
When you’re near you
I’m on fire
When you speak
(yea) I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries…